my heart goes out to you.

it killed me when you said you harm yourself

it killed me even more when you said you want a girl to talk to and hug.
i guess im nothing.
i try to talk to you.
i try to hang out with you as much as i can.
last time we hung out a hugged you.
a nice long big happy hug.
and i didn't want to let you, and it seemed like you didn't eaither.
and i tried to hang out today, but you said it was too cold.

idk
i wanna stick to this, even though i feel as if though i keep getting cut by your words.
but like i said, "i'd love to be able to call you mine one day."
and, "i dont want anyone to steal you away from me again."

i feel like what i say to you doesn't matter.
and by your texts i feel like you don't care about me, even though the other day you said "we are like perfect".

but you actions make me feel like you care.

maybe it's just me falling for you so hard so quickly.
not once, but twice.
theres just something about you.
and you so amazing in so many different ways.

i just want you to be okay.
and i want to make you happy<3

i'd stupidly give up so much for you.
something i don't think i've ever said, which is why it's stupid.

but i feel like it might not even matter.

but w.e...i decided i'm going through with this until i get hurt, get over you, or actually get to be called yours and be able to call you mine...i won't just let go and give up on you.