my heart goes out to you.

it killed me when you said you harm yourself

it killed me even more when you said you want a girl to talk to and hug.
i guess im nothing.
i try to talk to you.
i try to hang out with you as much as i can.
last time we hung out a hugged you.
a nice long big happy hug.
and i didn't want to let you, and it seemed like you didn't eaither.
and i tried to hang out today, but you said it was too cold.

idk
i wanna stick to this, even though i feel as if though i keep getting cut by your words.
but like i said, "i'd love to be able to call you mine one day."
and, "i dont want anyone to steal you away from me again."

i feel like what i say to you doesn't matter.
and by your texts i feel like you don't care about me, even though the other day you said "we are like perfect".

but you actions make me feel like you care.

maybe it's just me falling for you so hard so quickly.
not once, but twice.
theres just something about you.
and you so amazing in so many different ways.

i just want you to be okay.
and i want to make you happy<3

i'd stupidly give up so much for you.
something i don't think i've ever said, which is why it's stupid.

but i feel like it might not even matter.

but w.e...i decided i'm going through with this until i get hurt, get over you, or actually get to be called yours and be able to call you mine...i won't just let go and give up on you.

i downloaded a blogger app

because i have the need to be connected to the eletronic world at any givven time

i have an app for everything i use on a weekly basis

and as long as it doesnt slow down my phone i dont care

haha, i have favebook, myyearbook, a dailybooth app that works, twitter, and i was conetmplateing getting a formspring and looking for a twocansandstring app

haha

anywho, i was thinking bout college
and i was like, should i just take all of my clothes
or leave a few outfits at home
that way i wouldnt have to lug a bag back and forth, i mean, idk
i could leave like a pair or pants that im not really gonna miss, but done hate
and like 3 or 4 shirts that i dont normally wear
i was also wondering if i shouls take shitty high pants to school
but i was like all the ones i like are trashed
haha

and im gonna leave jammies at home
which brings me to the fact i only have a few pair of jammie pants

haha
any who
im just gonna shut up now

and im going shopping for the rest of my shit on monday
and i got some stuff yesterday
and although i didnt get the laundry basket i had my hear set on, mines pretty nifity

anddddddddddd
im not getting a alarm clock that makes u get up
my dad told me to put it on the other side of the room then gave me that wtf bro look...haha

i have soooo much shit that needs done
and im afraid im not gonna get my books in time
i shouls get the rest of my poseters before i go
haha
it said they sld all b there by the 31st
and i hope the books i dont get are for my mass communication class and the one i dont need first

imma have to like hope shane has the same books and got his

or find a study budy early one
NOT a fuck buddy (maranda)
and NOT someone to have a tea party with (colleen)

anywho
im gonna stop my random rant...for now...lolz

duces

winner of the random question thing

is becky
lolz
because her answer was funny
and
her prize is!!!!

yes,a ronnie bra ftw!
haha
[be happy, i made it just because you won]
xD

contest for oct 25- nov5!!

how do you make a slime potion out of a soul stone without using a feather tickler?

so yea, just post your answer in the comments
u can answer as many times as you want
BUT each answer has to be in a different comment of it won't be counted!!

AND
BE CREATIVE!!!!!!!
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why don't metal bands sing about kittens??? winner!

the winner is becky!!!!
with her answer of "it's because metal bands prefer their pussies more mature. xD"
xD

here is ur prize!!!!!

it's a rocket to the moon!!!
=D
haha

contest thingy for oct 16- 23!!!

why don't metal bands sing about kittens???


yay! i like having random contests!
and now i can have my random questions answered!
so if u have a reason why, post a comment
=D
and next week i will pick the answer i like best
and the winner shall get a prize
=D
yay!
haha


RULES::::
1. you can have as many reasons why
2. each reason has to be in a different comment or it won't be counted!
3. be creative mo' fo's!

more random things that make me smile

oh nose! francis is wiggy!!

it just reminds me of unskippy, which actually makes me sad D= but i like when these things say things!

hehe, it reminded me of the word squeezer!

in bed

it says "our computers are battling with a nasty gang of gremlins. we suggest trying your request again." haha, i was trying to upload a background for ask jeves, and this error repot came up